She Always Knew

Next week marks 1 year in Seattle for me, I will post something then I'm sure, since much has changed in my life in this past year. Of one thing I am sure though, I came here to heal and I certainly feel much happier than I did one year ago. If anything, I feel like I've been slowly putting lids onto overflowing parts of myself. 2010 was a pretty awful year, especially for my work. I think those rough patches are important when making work, but they're certainly no fun while you're riding them. I felt quite lost and it helped to make work, but I didn't know what it meant or how it all fit together, which frustrated me deeply. But now I see the beauty of it; I made pictures at my worse time, and now thatI have clarity and peace I am able to interpret them, decode them, organize them, edit and present them. Now it all makes sense.

I Don't Want To Be Alone Anymore
This year will be very important as I intend to wrap up some projects, which also means getting ready to exhibit them as a body of work for the first time. My project Sentiment, which I have been working on quite intensely for several years now finally feels like it's getting to a place where it makes sense. I have a few more pictures to make but now that my mind is clear I have been going beyond picture-making and looking at things, objects, that informed this emotional journey... I call them evidence. I found journals, postcards and other things that creeped up when I least expected as a reminder that some ghosts never leave, even if you think you've gotten rid of them. I am embracing this evidence and trying to bring it into the work, hoping it will inform some of the existing images. Some objects will exist as objects and some will be scans/prints of them.
Pain Vs. Shame